
I am happy to report that the bump is growing and all is well with Baby R. I feel like I am suddenly growing a lot bigger. I know some of you will be thinking - you ain't seen nothing yet girl! but baby is about 3lbs now and we got a bag of flour out last night that weighed just over 3lbs, man no wonder the lower half of my body is feeling a little different. When I glance over at those scan pictures though . . .
Since discovering I was pregnant I have had feelings of extreme nausea, months of non stop vomitting, sudden changes to my eye prescription, spotty skin, greasy hair (so much for the glowing thing!), inexplicable tears, irresistable exhaustion, raised blood pressure, a newly discovered blood mutation (seriously?), itchy itchy skin, super over active saliva gland, an abhorance of peppers and lettuce (I smell them from miles away!), crazy freak hairs growing on my face and tummy, an inny that is slowly becoming an outy, an inner alarm clock that wakes me up every night at 3.30am - I'm sure you've had the same and worse! -
but having said that -
I have never: felt more blessed, had more reasons to stop and smile to myself at kicks only I know are happening, had a more lovely, patient and thoughtful husband, wanted to spend more time with my sisters and their kids, spent more time thinking about the meaning of names, looked at one picture quite so much, felt as confident in a swim suit ( I swear I have a newly found strut waddle as I walk around the pool!), waited with so much anticipation of someone's arrival!
I was always quite nervous about being a mum. I wondered if I had it in me to give up my own interests and the things I wanted to do, especially with all the challenges that I'd seen come along with parenthood. I wondered what it would be like to give up work (at least for a time) and whether I would go crazy at home with only baby talk for company. As my tummy has started to grow and I've heard our little girl's heart beat and seen her kicking around I feel like I would give up anything. It's been a total change in me. I'm not worried at all anymore.
Baby R, thank you for all the changes you have already made to our lives. We simply cannot wait for you to arrive!!!